Smile is just a message away...!!!

Tired and restless, she laid still on the bed, glaring at the unknown sky, waiting for the dreams to take her in their world. The night was peaceful. Millions of thoughts clouded her vision and her mind drifted from one to another in just few seconds. Controlling her mind somehow, she waved off all the thoughts. Just as she closed her eyes, she heard a beep of the phone. Someone had messaged her. Not sure whether she wanted to pick her cell and check, she left it there for few moments. After few deep breaths, her hand moved across the bed, to pick the phone. There lay a message on the inbox. Wondering what was so important for him to message her at this hour of the night. 

Without opening it, she kept the phone back. Did she really want to know what was in there? Was it a happy message? Will the content shatter her? Many random thoughts again dashed into her mind from the still unread message. Possibilities for what worst the message could be and also what best lay ahead. The past experiences always made her think the worst of situations and be prepared. On thinking from all negative, her mind asked her to check the message. 

She gathered the courage and slowly picked the phone to read it, prepared for the worst. It felt like ages and when she finally read it, her face lit up with a bright smile. :D

She lay on her back chatting for hours and it was the chirping of the birds which made her realise it was morning and there was no sign of tiredness on her face. The only thing to be notice was a delightful and pleasing smile.

How small things in life bother us too much. The digital life has changed the way we perceive things. Communication ways are many but communication itself is so difficult. Each of us perceive the things we read and listen in different ways and that becomes our understanding of it.

A unexpected message from someone can make the day and at times we end up waiting hours for a message from someone to just check on us. So why wait to be unexpected? Just pick the phone and message/call that someone who you are expecting or might be expecting you and trust me, the smile will melt the heart.

Rain makes everything Beautiful...!!!

Tip... tip... tip... tip... tip... and the drops of rain flow down from the forehead... slowly towards the eyes and then touching the cheeks gently moving towards the lips.. and then you feel the wetness of each drop and the touch of each drop as a beautiful touch of the lover. Feeling the rain and its each drops is just an out of the world feel for me.

Rain.. thunder.. strong wind... and heavy rain after that is something many of us cherish. It makes us realize the beauty of nature more deeply. The thirst of the Earth gets relived and the fragrance of mother Earth just makes all the rain-lovers nostalgic. The weather takes an amazing turn with the arrival of monsoons and everyone is relived from the burning sun and the heat is left behind.

Sitting near the window and writing this post makes me feel love rain even more. Drops that clung on the end of the leaves.. drops that slowly trip down from the window sill.. drops that directly embrace the Earth.. each of them have their own beauty.

PS: Dancing in the rain is something that I feel like doing right now.

My scars make me what I am...!!!

Broken into fragments, tears in eyes, aching heart, a doubt on yourself.. all such emotions and thoughts come hurrying towards us when we end relations and move away from people who played an important role in our life.

People don't stay with us forever and nor do any relations come with a warranty card. But still it becomes hard for us to face broken relations. We get ditched, cheated and have broken hearts and all this take us into a state of trauma. But is this the end? Why after such encounters we detach our self from some feelings. Why do we get scared of falling in love again or why do we stop mingling with people.  Well.. I don't have the answer to this question.

I have often heard and read that we should move on.. The show must go on. Yes, it does goes on.. but it takes time. Recomposing our self to accept some realities takes time. But somewhere in this process we do lose a important part of our self. Losing will not be a appropriate word.. instead I should say in this process we find a part of our self. We know what makes us weak and what makes us strong.

As an individual who has faced these emotions, I feel its a part of growing. All these things makes me think the way I think today. After many heart breaks and ditched and cheated upon many times, I have become an individual with my own set of rules and have my own self-respect. I still do fall in love, still face heart-breaks, still cry out my eyes, still go in low and sad moods, but in the end of it all, I am strong, stronger than I was ever before.
 I walk with my head held high. I have experience of things. I have come out of traumas. I have lived it. I have pain. I have love. I have tears. I have emotions. I have scars and they make me what I am today.

Wealthy is a person who.......

Just browsing through and I found this image in front of eyes and it made me stop scrolling down the page.

In the materialistic life of today, we all think that money can buy anything and everything but of course this is not true. Money is just a part of wealth but never the way to measure it. It is something that can make us buy and possess things of comfort and joy but never the things that create joy. Real joy and happiness comes from things that make our heart smile and not just our lips. The smile that is smiled with the heart is the one that is adored by all.

Owning and possessing things that cannot be bought by money is the real source of joy and thus shows the real wealth of a person

After all, its the people who gather around your coffin that matters and not the cost of the coffin.

Agony of Life...!!!

"Expectation is the root to all heartache…!! "

-William Shakespeare

Wonderfully quoted and so truly believed, this quote by William Shakespeare raises a sense of self question in me. It makes me think about the depth of life. It makes me think of my life.

Often we are in pain and curse ourself because we have been hurt by someone. But does someone really has the power to hurt us? No. Its us only who hurt our own self and then by some means blame others for being the cause for our pain and suffering.

I personally had many heartaches and the reason i felt it was because I expected from people. I believed that I will have my so-called close ones with me during my trauma times, they will support me and be by my side. Here is where the heartache begins. Just because of expectations. I expected things from people and it never seemed to have given the happiness i thought of, instead it left me with a feeling of insecurity and scars on my heart. The moment we count on something or somebody to be the source of our joy and happiness comes the time we allow intruders in our space. We realize and feel a discomfort and inconsistency. We ruin prospects of any upliftment and the journey of life becomes a stress.

Heartaches distress us and we feel a certain kind of resentment towards everyone and this bitterness gradually becomes a stain in our soul. This is very harmful indeed. So, why risk? and it is not a small risk. We expose ourself to the danger of repulsion and hard feelings towards the world.

So, the question that arises in my mind is Why Expect? Where does these expatiation arise from? 

The only valid answer coming to me is because we tend to the same things for others or believe that we will be doing it when the time comes. So, again the problem emerges from ourself only.

So, simply do things and acts of kindness without expecting the same in return as it will only lead to pain, suffering and wrath towards people.

“If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed.”

SECRET ADMIRER (Part 2)

"One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving."
-Paulo Coelho

Days pass, weather change and so do people and their feelings but in our story the admiration of Khusboo is still at a peak. Though, there is a difference now. She has understood that she has to accept the reality and let go of the few things. 

As months passed and the year came to an end, Khusboo was in an unstable state of mind. Small things started hurting her and soon she become vulnerable. The flair of the relation had already subsided from one end and she started feeling that she was a worthless asset in everyone's life. She decided that she will ignore and forget her "admiration" and things will soon be normal for her, but this did not happen. Day in and day out it became heart breaking for her to work in the office. Daily she would be hurt and daily she would feel like crying her eyes out. Unluckily, she reached a point where her tears had also dried up. Many ups and downs took place in her personal life which she wanted to share with her "Admiration" but he seem to never understand her need and even she could not speak out. She started hating herself for ever being close to him and also loathed going to her office.

The pain that she faced started affecting her health and all because of one reason that she hated herself. Unaware of the consequences, she was ignored herself completely and was only wanting to leave the place so that she could forget him and her admiration. But, lucky are those who are able to do such things and she was not that lucky. No option was coming her way. All that happened that her admiration grew and is still growing both personally and professionally.

Now was the time to take a hard decision for her betterment. She decided that she needs to ignore him personally and maintain just a formal professional relation. This seemed very difficult at first but she had no other option. She felt broken. It seemed that he was his only friend but she was wrong, of-course. The problem was that she was close to him and the only thing that was making her a victim was her own thoughts. She gathered courage and tried doing what she wanted.

Soon, she realized that the mantra of happiness lies in herself. She was happy when their friendship grew but was unhappy when the relation declined (same happens in any sort of relation), so why not to accept the reality and face it. Embrace whatever was coming her way. She cherished the small talks that came their way, the small smiles that passed between them and most importantly the time they had spent together. Nothing is permanent and she realized it. Everything that goes high up has to come down at sometime, may it be a thing or a relation.

Its been quite a time that they both know each other. She still remembers the first day she saw him. She remembered the look that made her admire him. Her care and warmth for the relation has grown subsequently. She understands that life is about loving and admiring things that come your way without expecting anything in return. All said and done, she still respects him and admires him and will always be his SECRET ADMIRER. After all, it was her and her heart which admired him.

You Are the One For Me..!!!

You are close to me

Close to my heart

Close to my soul..!!

          In my memories

          In my breath

          In my eyes…!!

My Love is what I have to give

My Care is what i have to offer

My Senses is what i have to lose..!!

You are the One for me

For my life… For my soul

In you I see my world..

coz its Only You the One…..!!!

You are my passion

my only compassion

That can make me blossom…!!

          Your presence

          Your smile

          Your touch..!!!

My day starts with you

My day ends with you

My day is lived with you..!!

You are the One for me

For my life… For my soul

In you I see my world..

coz its Only You the One….!!!

Let me Love you

Let me Live you

Let me be drowned in you..!!

         In your arms

         In your breath

         In your touch..!!

My Life gets it means from you

My Heart gets it beats from you

My Soul gets its power from you..!!

You are the One for me

For my life… For my soul

In you I see my world..

coz its Only You the One…..!!!

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.” 

LOVE- A Purest Feeling

LOVE.. a feeling of being drunk in someone else's wine. 

One of the most happiest thing in a person's life but yet painful and still people search for it.

Everyone one of us at some point of time have been in love or atleast felt that we are in love. But is this really love?

People generally think of infatuation or attraction as love and this so called Love is given a name of a relation. This relation glorifies in the beginning and soon the flair is gone. People get hurt, relations finish and hearts are felt as heartbroken. Is this what love is? Is getting hurt a part of love? Well, the answer is surely NO.

When a person is in love or feels love for someone then it is one of the purest feelings which stays with the person forever.

This is a feeling in which the happiness of someone is all that matters, even if it is the not the other way round. 

This is a feeling of giving for someone with all your might, even if you don't get anything in return.

This is a feeling when only the smile on that person's face can make your heart smile.

Now the question arises, Is love selfish? Is it possible to Love only to give? So, the answer is surely YES.

True love is something that never wants anything except that the other person should be happiest state of mind.

Love is the most amazing feeling in the world and also the hardest to be felt.

Realizing it in my own life, I can conclude by saying- "Reward of every true love is not love… But it surely is a great feel...!! "